Atheism- Not So Easy

I had just read an article by Jug Suraiya in the Times of India e-paper(which sadly isn't free anymore) which deals with how people had decided to be 'chelas' of an all-powerful person named God and used to make deals with him to fulfill their personal ambitions. One particular fact the article pointed out which astonished me was that there was a high degree of correlation between corruption and 'religious' nature of people of a country.I suddenly reflected on how I myself had been a sycophant of 'God' to get many personal desires fulfilled,though I never know how much he was actually involved in them.

It was then that I decided to make a switch and try being an atheist. I kicked off proceedings by boycotting an 'important puja' at home which was aimed at bringing prosperity to family members.I stopped going to temples altogether(much to the dismay of my mother).I decided that I shall decide and shape my own life instead of leaving it at the mercy of a fictitious person named God.Some days passed, nothing happened.Few more days passed, nothing good happened.A week later, horrible things happened and life became miserable.I tried my best not to relate any of these to my new found atheist practices but in the end, I finally relented.

I learnt that it is much easier to believe that there is someone who can influence events in your life and make miracles happen rather that hold the reins and take charge of your own life.May be one fine day, when things are going fine and look to remain the same for some more time, I might try it again.But definitely not for now.